Freedom.

Oh yea, we are officially free from exam. :)

But so sad, all friends back home that early,
felt a little bit dissapointed, cant celebrate with them, sigh :(

At least i'm not alone, dear still be with me after exam.
I'm really happy to see him these days, i means after Monday.
Erm, maybe I'm too stressed out, and he is the one who can cheers me up.

That's why I really hope to see him before every exam :)
I'm sorry dear, i have ruined few days.
I'm really sorry, I hope i didn't ruined your mood in exam.
I think i didn't, right?

Btw, exam past, don't think about this word anymore.
Exam

Lecture notes, textbooks, past year papers, exam shoo shoo go away.:D

Uhmmm, today, something happened that make me really down.
I shouldn't having the habits of check your message everytime right?
Previously i won't check on their message, because for me, its just like no manners to check people's private things.
But i don't know since when we're together and get closer, I started to check your message all the times.
Its really don't relate to whether I'm trusting or not with you, what i want to know is to understand more about you.
You rarely tell me about your stuff, sometimes go out also didn't mentioned with me, i know its not a necessity, but at least you should let me know ma right?

Anyway, I do really felt regret already, not because of check on your message today, its because I SHOULDN'T said

Cheh, nothing to see de.

everytime after checked your inbox.

So, what happened today isn't that what i want?
Its sounds really ironic, haha.
I'm really stupid to expect that way, really stupid.

I'm just too confident with you in this matter.
I never thought of the possibility of this kind problem.
I'm just too believe in you.

And that's why I'm that down today.

I really really really very very very hate that feel.


I'm don't understand why you put that name.
I don't understand why a girl who has bf already still can write this way to a not-so-familiar friend.

What i saw thru the message, i think you told her you want take some action with me right?
I'm not really pissed off when you think of do that action with me,
but what really matter is WHY you wanna told her.

After view part of the message, i stopped and quit inbox already.
Im really sad and afraid to see the rest already.

And why you are sms with her all time but i don't know.
It's not one or two times :(
I'm really sad you know.

Guys always like this, I thought you aren't, but you really make me felt dissapointed this time.

But it's hard to blame on you also,
sigh, maybe i'm the one who 'motivated' you to that.

But it's so wrong. Don't you know how i feel when i know. :'(

I dislike the way she talk to you.
I dislike she give you lollipop.
I dislike she got her bf but still find you.
I dislike everything she did.
I dislike that status she post that will make you comment about it.

I know she is a nice girl, it's just i can't accept.
If she is your secondary school friend, or best friends which has knew for long, i'm still can accept.

But...

Dear, i'm really not confidence with our relationship now.
I have been betrayed during last time, you won't know how my feeling now.



While stay in the car, I'm still thinking of pull myself out from this relationship.
I know maybe for you, it's nothing, just normal chat.

But i'm really hard to accept this kind of thing happen,
I'm the one who rather suffered short-term pain instead of long-term pain.


Anyway, follow your feeling, I just want you to be real, be true with me :)
And I hope i would never be the one again who are the last one know what has happened.

Please don't conceal anything, please.

Erm, nothing to say already,
enjoy your holidays.

Love.